The Valley - Day 4

A "Little Bit-it" of Hope.

Finally, I feel that some pieces to this messy puzzle are coming together.

We met with the new christian counselor. He had some good advice. Wants to make sure all of us in the family have some support. He told Mr. 15 that he would be part of his support. Mr. 15 did nod a few times. Smirked a few times. And said this guy is nothing like his last counselor. Which he hated, so I'm hoping this is good news. We laughed in the car afterwards agreeing that Mr. Counselor would be much easier to listen to if he didn't say, "ummm.ummm.ummm" before each sentence. But maybe we should all stop and think about what we're going to say next.....He gave me some advice on how to cope with my emotions before they boil over. I think Mr.15 was happy that his mom was getting the advice. Mr. Counselor did want me to pass on to Mr.15 that by taking walks and mid-afternoon showers that was good coping skills. Then he asked me in private if he could share his own suicide attempt story at age 10 and how God spared his life. Uhhh. Yeah. I think Mr.15 might respect him a little bit after that.

Mr. Wonderful and I met with our Family Life Pastor while babies were in childcare and big kids were in youth group. It was good to just go and connect with hubby and get the pastor caught up. During this time we realized the amount of huge stressors we've all had the last couple of months.
July - Loss of an early pregnancy, Mr.15 decided to leave for hours during the day and late at night.
August - Decided to sell home and downsize. Can't afford pig because of income drop by 80%. House shopping about did me in. God provided for us in a mighty way with a perfect 1,000sq ft smaller home and 1/2 the mortgage!
September - School year started
October - Prepped new house. And boys and dad moved us over 3 wks. Nana's new chemo almost killed her.
November - Mr.15's love of his life broke up with him. Praise God! Not a healthy relationship at all!
Nana not doing well at all. Not sure how much time we have with her.
Cyber bullying led to fight at school. Chris got the punches in and won, but the bullying comments have got to hurt. ( A week and a half before suicide attempt)

The pastor was encouraging that at least we are not divorcing right now, because that's the only major life crisis we aren't dealing with! And that we need to protect our marriage and keep ourselves healthy.
Wow! Is this really my life right now?

Afterwards, I got a call from the Pshych's office that they can see Mr.15 Friday! Wow! When the other place can't see him until mid-February! That is a relief!